sick of life, sick of everything, including YOU.

i think this is just so beautiful. take a look, i copied from some msn website:

Myth: Women want to control men.
Truth: Women want to contribute, improve and be included.
"Women just want to control men until we follow them around like little puppy dogs."
"Women can't just leave a situation alone -- they have to pick at it until we do what they want us to do."
"Women always have to have things their way, or they get upset."
"Women want to make men into wimps."
This is one of men's favorite complaints about women, and one that women hate the most -- that we are controlling and manipulative, and all our efforts to work on the relationship or communicate our needs are thinly veiled attempts to control the man in our life. This myth about women is one of the more difficult to dispel.
Here's what happens:
Men see women trying to contribute or get organized or plan or problem-solve, and misinterpret it as our attempt to control them.
Remember -- a woman's intention is usually not to control. Rather, it's to offer whatever she can, out of love, to you or to the relationship, whether it's in the form of organization, ideas, suggestions, alternatives and so forth. When a man dismisses her offering as an attempt to dominate or control him, he's pushing away her love in one of its most fundamental expressions.

ok i'm NOT refering to anyone in particular. just find this interesting. one good reason y men make women wan to destroy the entire mars. haha. no offence. juz a casual comment. :)
mom's worried that i might take drug somehow or another. earlier on.. she's worried that i'll go online and meet ppl..den get conned into having sex. now she's worried that i'll take estasy. this is wat the media is doing to her. argh. media sucks. she keep on telling me that i will end up like this girl on the tv...yahdah yahdah. do i really look that rebellious or wat? i was told that i look like a tcher by someone, now i look like someone who will have sex wif ppl i meet online or someone who take estasy. haha. sounds so stupid. i was telling joyce that next time my mom find medicine in my bag, she will think that it's either contraceptive pills or estasy. hahhaha. i find this totally ridiculous and hilarious. hahahhaah. my mommy is so farnie.
i'm living in denial. actual fact: i do lead a sad life. lying to myself that i'm really a happy girl. desperately need Him in my life.